DAMN!

haish....here i am..i cant sleep..there's to many stuffs i'm thinking of right now...my life, the future, the past..surely the future and the past is something that i kept on thinking...i try to avoid the past, but ya....the past always haunt us no matter where we go and what we do or did...the past stops us from doing something..the past motivates us to do something.....what happens to me in the past motivates me to get my revenge....well, not a bad revenge like what you're thinking right now...i'm not gonna go out and kill people that i hate*i wish*...my kind of revenge is, i want to be successful in what i'm good at, or what i like to do....not many people in this world get what they want...once i'm successful, i'm gonna show to everyone, especially the one that disappoints me a lot, also to my enemies, "hah! i'm successful, ur not!* hahaha...lol...hopefully i get what i want...AMIN...well, my dream since i was young kid was, i want to be in a band....and i want that band to be successful...express my anger, my ideologies, my thoughts through my lyrics and my behaviour when i play my music...i know...its hard and its like impossible....because duh! music???entertainment industry...its not that easy to get into that kind of shit and become big! especially the kind of music that i play...well, to those who don't know, i love to play metal and hardcore music so much....but that doesn't mean i don't like jazz, classical and blues....i do love jazz, classical and blues so much...well, another part of my dream is, i want people in the whole world to recognize metal and hardcore, respect metal and hardcore as another form of music...not noise....when rock and roll first came, people look at rock and roll as unhealthy music....a bunch of noise....but now, look at rock and roll???they are now big!! metal and hardcore is part of rock and roll....a sub-culture of rock and roll....being more aggressive kind of music....especially here in malaysia...want the people of malaysia to recognize this kind of music....no need the whole people, just i want it to be recognize....i don't want this kind of music to be look as a negative music....i'm tired and sick of people that likes to point metal and hardcore as a negative music...well, thats why i say my dream is like impossible...but, its something that i'd like to fight for....haha....hish....sorry for the typo error if did some....lazy to do corrections...haha...as long as you could understand what i'm trying to say that's good enough..ya...i wish my band by this year could perform.....if everything's fine, i'll update about my band, in my own band page ya....impossible is nothing!haha!LOL! XD i don't care what you think of me.....i don't care if you think my dream is impossible and talks bad bout it...but hell! what do i care dumbass....everyone have a dream...some of you might dream of being a power rangers, or a ninja turtle.....hahaha.....well, that's why it is called DREAM....and wish and i want my dream to become reality by my hard work! that's all i have to say at the moment....i'll update this blog when i have something to say...haha...see ya!